The first panic attack was my worse because I didnt know what was happening

by scardycat
(Australia)

I was out of just having a drink of soft drink. Feeling relaxed. In fact more relaxed as usual. When all of a sudden I just felt unwell. I started to get really hot so i went to the bathroom and threw up. Then I started to sweat. I was sweating so bad my clothes became wet. My head started to spin and my heart was pounding as hard it hurt so I sat on the bathroom floor for a few about 10 minutes. I thought I was going to die I was so scared. I thought I was having a heart attack. I sat on the floor until it settled down a bit. When I looked in the mirror I was pale as a ghost. The dizzyness and sweating lasted about an hour then I started to feel ok. But I felt like I had run a marathon. I was totally exhausted. I went from one extreme of been boiling hot to feeling cold. When I got up the next morning I still felt exhausted and had tightness in the chest so I went straight to the doctors. I had a ECG on my heart that came back normal which is good. He said I had a panic attack. Ive never had anything like that happen before omg scared the hell out of me I think its because it hit me so sudden. I have these type of panic attacks 3 to 4 times a week. Sometimes more. They have affected my every day life so much. Some days I cant even go to get milk let alone go to the supermarket. I get as far as the door and I start to panic. I do breathing exercises to try and relax self talk but if the panic wont go away or even settle a bit I just have to go home. I cant go where there are crowds either so I have become very isolated.

I been having these types of attacks now for over 12 months.
I am having regular doctors appointments and see a psychologist every week. When I go for my appointments I go straight into a room on my own cause I cant be around anyone or I panic. This can't be good for my health having these attacks so often.
I'm on meds and I cant see any difference really and Ive tried many different ones.
I feel very alone right now