Living with constant anxiety and terror

by Sammie<33333
(Vineland nj )

I have lived with anxiety for most of my life. I started having anxiety attacks when I was in the 5th grade I am now 19 years old and they only seem to be getting worst by the day. My first attack was in the mall I felt like my throat was closing or I was having a heart attack. I told my mom and she had the lady at the counter in boscoves call an ambulance while another shopper said she was a nurse and checked to make sure I didn't have any signs of a heart attack. When the ambulance came I was already feeling better so They told my mom to drive me to the hospital just in case. When I got there they said I was just having a panic attack and to try and relax I had them for a really long time but I learned to cope with them. Recently they came back stronger and everytime I have one I feel like I'm dying and terrified I can't calm myself down no matter what I do and they just seem to be controlling my life I hope one day I can finally feel normal and live a happy life again with my family, my son, my boyfriend, and my step children life just isn't complete when you suffer from anxiety.