Another day of endless panic

by Kevin
(Missouri)

I have had panic attacks for going on six years now and over time the feelings have become even more intense. As I write this I am feeling like everything is falling apart and I will forever be a prisoner to these attacks. It varies from day to day but death is always a thought about subject and one that bothers me to no end. I realize that we will all die someday but for me I feel as though each day is going to be the day. I have a wide variety of symptoms during a full blown panic attack but the usual ones are trouble breathing, shaking, sweating, confusion, and feeling like I am losing control over my body. Sometimes they last a short while others last for hours and are pure hell. After these attacks I am completely exhausted like I ran a marathon and pretty much useless the rest of the day. It's horrible to feel like you are dying when you are perfectly healthy. I wish it didn't have to be like this but I must find a way to push through.