anonymous and scared

by Nat
(Canada)

Well, I'm quite young. I'm in high school and I can honestly say I'm stressed out to try and be somewhat perfect.

I had a project due and it wasn't working so I walked home to fix the project during lunch and hurried back to school. Everything was fine. The project was saved!

That's when it hit. I couldn't stop shaking. I had worried myself sick. I had to sit down at that time because I was very light headed and I couldn't see straight. My friend walked up to me and ask if I was okay but when I tried saying I was fine, I couldn't breathe. It was like a choking gasp. Obviously my friend freaked out which didn't help but eventually she calmed herself down and was able to get me a teacher.

Sadly, I don't like talking about my problems and lately, I was having a lot of them so I knew why I was having a panic attack. I tried explaining to the teacher what was happening but with no luck because I was scared. And I cried which doesn't help either. My panic attack lasted a half hour. I couldn't breathe normally, had to miss half a class, had a pounding headache and still couldn't calm down.

The only way I snapped out of it was when a teacher told me, make a list of things that are bothering you. That idea calmed me down. And so I went on my normal life... at least until panic attack number two. But that's another story.