I decided to drive to another town to visit friends (about an hour and a half away), catch up, and drink.
I go to university and my doc is only available during semester, and this was mid August. I had run out of my anti anxiety meds probably about a month earlier. I was feeling ok, didn't really need them but just the thought of not being able to get them left me feeling uneasy. I figured it would be fine though.
On the drive over I began to panic but I calmed down enough to make it there without incident. I was much more at ease when I got there and had a fun evening.
The next day I woke up pretty hung over, and as you may know alcohol can agitate anxiety conditions. We went out for breakfast and I was fine, but later we went to a bar to watch a sports game on tv. About midway through I felt like I needed some air so I went outside.
That heavy feeling on my chest wasn't going away and I was starting to get that feeling of unreality and dizziness. Then it hit me that I was in a town I wasn't familiar with, nowhere to go, and no way to get meds to calm me down.
I started randomly walking down the street, that feeling of wanting to grab a stranger and beg them for help creeping into my mind. I even thought about calling an ambulance just to get a sedative.
Eventually I texted my friends saying my hangover was hitting me and that I was getting a migraine. I barely made the 20 min car ride back to their house. I played it off like I was feeling nauseous but really I felt trapped in that car, like I was about to go insane. I wanted to try to just head home but they insisted I stay.
I didn't sleep at all that night and the next morning I hit the road first thing in the morning. I've dealt with anxiety for over 2 years now and luckily that was by far the worst attack I've ever had. Glad nothing like that has ever repeated itself.